revelations

"the artist must prophesy not in the sense that he foretells things to come, but in the sense he tells his audience, at the risk of their displeasure, the secrets of their own hearts."

- R G COLLINGWOOD

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attending Colin Kirton's drama workshop was an eye opener.

art, in its beauty of paintings, poetry, songs, essays, etc is a place to speak the truth.

in indirect ways, it is the perfect place to express real issues which people are uncomfortable with, things which people did not like to talk about and refused to acknowledge.

by not acknowledging the truth, we deny the existence of these real issues.

like Colin pointed out, how many songs are there about unanswered prayers, or a rape victim's pain?

so many times I'd start on blog entries that reflected personal feelings, political issues, stereotypes, etc; but after the post was finished it had to be discarded, because it was either too sensitive or too offending.

art in some ways is confined, when in truth it is limitless in boundaries.
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honestly, I have found it difficult to acknowledge certain truths about myself and the world.
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many times I have kept quiet about my doubts on religion, my inner desires, bumiputera issues, etc.

yet doubt is a part of human nature, which is perfectly acceptable if not sociably accepted.

the 7 sins (pride, envy, lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath) are called deadly sins for a reason.

but what right do we have to condemn people acknowledging these issues which everyone, even ourselves, face?

back then, I remember how horrified I was at finding out about a friend slitting her wrists;

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to the guy friend who admitted his secret of his addiction to masturbation.

secrets covered up with smiles, masks, layers, so that the world would be more accepting of the personal individual.
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personally, I find it ironic how every single day, we struggle to obtain acceptance from people who are facing the same damned dilemna of social acceptance.

so applause and salutations to artists who can indirectly express the truth in metaphors, symbolism, allegories etc;
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people who create beautiful contraversies to make us stop, ponder, and reflect on lives.
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life is not a full bed roses.

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maybe its time I acknowledge and face my own supressed truths too.